Big name. The finish is the answer to a question I was asked yesterday. How long have you been a survivor? Well I am doing Chemo again, they found more cancer, I am feeling crappy, my hair is going to start falling out and I have sores up and down my mouth and digestive system. So I didn't know how to answer that question but I do now. How long have I been a survivor? TODAY - Because that is all there is. And can I tell you how grateful I am for that.
MY BABIES:
Jerry
Kandiss, Jeff, Nataly, Sydney, Talmage
Tasha, Ben, Cash, Gabby
Whitney
The rest of my family and all you friends.
You keep me a survivor today and everyday.
One thing after 20 cuts under the scapulae this year there is this one place on my left chest which is where my babies always lay their little heads and I love them. But they put this port thing in and Gabby just blasts her little head there like a cannonball. Ouch. Got any suggestions? I will keep her and yank out that big chunk of medical implant of some sort. It is supposed to help!!!
The sun just came up and I need to get ready for the day. This is my favorite time of day. It means I still have the whole day. Even on days when I can't make it through the whole day. Some days I wear the orangutan shirt of my Dad's and I feel him around me and reminding me that it is about the babies whether they are the flavor of the month or not. You know he is right.
Good Morning---
4 comments:
Kathleen- I am so proud of you and so honored to have you in my life. I have no understanding of what you are going through, but I can see that you are SO incredibly strong, and your spirit is stronger than this crap inside you. You WILL be strong again, soon. We love you so much and our prayers are always with you. Thank you for the love and support that you always give us, even when you feel like there is nothing to give. You mean so much to us. WE LOVE YOU!
Kathleen,
Thank you so much for posting this update. I do know a little bit of what you are going through, but never will it be exactly the same for anyone, or any two.:) I am assuming that the "tumor board" met and decided that the chemo would take care of this pesky little tumor in your lymph node, but I am wondering if it is a different chemical makeup for this time around? How long do they think it will take to get this one, or are they going to surgically take it out and hope the chemo will mop up the rest, if there are any? I know it is hard to answer all these questions, but if you can, leave me a note on my blog or email: karenkancerkiller.blogspot.com or espydk@gmail.com.
You are an amazing woman. You have been through more than your share of tribulations this year. I pray for you. I know you are in the process of becoming a totally new woman, the best there ever was!!!!
Kathleen,
I just saw on Facebook that your hair is gone, and I want to tell you again how much we love you! You look beautiful with or without the hair, but I am sure it was still very difficult. Stay strong and know that we are all praying for you!
My Dear Aunt Kathy,
I love you. So very, very much. I think of you day in and day out. I'm sending gentle loving, warmth and angels your way. From here, I embrace you and love you so big!
xoxox
Angie
interestingly enough, I find my captcha word to be strangely ironic today... "stable"
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