It's been one week since my last chemo. I keep hoping to feel normal again and now I think I have forgotten what normal is. I am trying to have faith and know that time will make things different. But today I am weak. I am shaking and I feel like I am only part way here. My mouth is sore and it feels like alligator skin. It hurts and feels foreign, like everything about me. I hope that I can be me again. It's strange when your not you. It has a feeling of being intoxicated but it is not fun. My fingers hurt and don't feel attached. My toes are like blocks of wood.
My skin is bagging everywhere on me. I feel like I look like the frozen lady in the tub in the movie "The Shining". My favorite scary movie. I think I needed to go have some hydration today but I didn't have anyone who could drive me and I am sure that I would be arrested if I got caught driving. So I told Mom & Dad that I needed to go home. Hope the office is OK. I am afraid that I will always be tired. I can't even walk upstairs without needing to take a break. I want to be me again. I pray it is possible. Hopefully this is my last whining blog. I am supposed to go have my nails done today even that sounds like way to much work. The good news from this session of chemo is Mom didn't have chemo. Her kidney function was way down. So lucky her she is taking a break. But they always weigh you and I have to tell everyone that by their scale I have lost 109 pounds. Can you believe it. I can't. I am looking forward to enjoying some shopping when I feel better. I think I wear a size 14. Almost a 12 but definately not a 24! I hope the chemo and the radiation haven't caused permenant damage to my stomach and all that I had done. I know there will be some damage but hopefully most I will be able to work through. Well I can't stand listening to me whine so that is all for now. I will write back when I feel better. I Love all of you and am thankful for your thoughts, prayers and calls.
Love,
Nana Kathlene
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Last Chemo Session
On Wednesday I had my last chemo session. Yeah! So now for the next couple of weeks I will feel pretty sick and miserable. But there seems to be an end soon. Mom is gettng a break for a while. The Dr. thinks she needs a little break from chemo. I think it will be a good break for her she has been through so much. Her kindneys are in a little trouble so we will see what happens after we meet with the Dr.
Dad and I went to a costume party last night. It was fun but I didn't feel so well. But it was fun to dress up and go out. Dad went as a plumber with a plumbers crack and all. I went as a vampire. I actually fit into this costume which felt great. I just sat there most of the night because I felt to shakey to stand up and walk around.
In about three weeks I will start to feel better then I start six weeks of radiation. The radiation makes you very weak and tired but you usually are not sick. This is something to look forward to. It's funny how you change what you ook forward to.
INFO!!!!!!!
The Thayn Family is having a traditional Thanksgiving on the Friday after Thanksgiving so we don't interfere with everyone else. Please make every effort to participate. This may be the important holiday of the year. Mom will be off her chemo and hopefully feel better. Try not to miss this.
Dad and I went to a costume party last night. It was fun but I didn't feel so well. But it was fun to dress up and go out. Dad went as a plumber with a plumbers crack and all. I went as a vampire. I actually fit into this costume which felt great. I just sat there most of the night because I felt to shakey to stand up and walk around.
In about three weeks I will start to feel better then I start six weeks of radiation. The radiation makes you very weak and tired but you usually are not sick. This is something to look forward to. It's funny how you change what you ook forward to.
INFO!!!!!!!
The Thayn Family is having a traditional Thanksgiving on the Friday after Thanksgiving so we don't interfere with everyone else. Please make every effort to participate. This may be the important holiday of the year. Mom will be off her chemo and hopefully feel better. Try not to miss this.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
10-09-08
My mom asked me to journal for her today. She is really sick with this chemo treatment. It's made her really tired, shaky and nauseated. My dad is going to take her into the doctor and get her hydrated. Which this will make her feel better.
It's been kindof a bummer cause she doens't really want to talk on the phone or do anything and she is really grumpy. I know that's because she doesn't feel good. She has also been really busy with grandma. Also stressing about her too!!!
Grandma went into the hospital on Monday with chest pains. They had her stay for a few days so they could run some tests on her. After all the tests came back they decided just to do and angeogram. The doctor thought that this would be best for her right now. When they were doing the angeogram they found that two of her valves were clogged. They said that their not going to do any thing with those right now. But on a postitive note her heart is pumping hard and is healthy. Grandma is home and doing better. Thats good!
So, in the mean time keep praying for my mom and grandma. Also for my dad he is still having a hard time (he wont admitt it though). Thanks for all your prayers!
It's been kindof a bummer cause she doens't really want to talk on the phone or do anything and she is really grumpy. I know that's because she doesn't feel good. She has also been really busy with grandma. Also stressing about her too!!!
Grandma went into the hospital on Monday with chest pains. They had her stay for a few days so they could run some tests on her. After all the tests came back they decided just to do and angeogram. The doctor thought that this would be best for her right now. When they were doing the angeogram they found that two of her valves were clogged. They said that their not going to do any thing with those right now. But on a postitive note her heart is pumping hard and is healthy. Grandma is home and doing better. Thats good!
So, in the mean time keep praying for my mom and grandma. Also for my dad he is still having a hard time (he wont admitt it though). Thanks for all your prayers!
Friday, October 3, 2008
10-3-08
So today my mom asked me to blog for her. She is not feeling very good! Yesterday was chemo for her and grandma. It was such a busy day for them both. They were both so tired.
After chemo my mom took grandma to the neurologist to find out what is going on. Because a few weeks ago she had a cat scan, so this was a follow up. The doctor told them that she has a mild form of dementia. He is going to put her on some medicine that will help bring back her memory. Grandma also went and had a blood transfusion.
So while grandma was getting her blood transfusion, my mom was having some therapy on her right arm. The reason for the therapy is because she has been having lymph edema. Which is swelling, pain, lumps in arm and numbness. Therapist said, that it may or may not go away with in a year. Also if it hasn't gone away within the year she will probably have it the rest of her life. But she said that she really likes the treatments that they do. She said that they feel really good.
When they were both done with their appointments, my mom took her and grandma to the pharmacy and their meds. Then they both went home and went to sleep.
Well as you can tell it has been very hard for her and grandma. So we start all over again and for the next couple of weeks she is going to be down and not feeling good.
So, mom PLEASE take care of you and not worry about any one else. We love you! Take care.
Love,
Kandiss
After chemo my mom took grandma to the neurologist to find out what is going on. Because a few weeks ago she had a cat scan, so this was a follow up. The doctor told them that she has a mild form of dementia. He is going to put her on some medicine that will help bring back her memory. Grandma also went and had a blood transfusion.
So while grandma was getting her blood transfusion, my mom was having some therapy on her right arm. The reason for the therapy is because she has been having lymph edema. Which is swelling, pain, lumps in arm and numbness. Therapist said, that it may or may not go away with in a year. Also if it hasn't gone away within the year she will probably have it the rest of her life. But she said that she really likes the treatments that they do. She said that they feel really good.
When they were both done with their appointments, my mom took her and grandma to the pharmacy and their meds. Then they both went home and went to sleep.
Well as you can tell it has been very hard for her and grandma. So we start all over again and for the next couple of weeks she is going to be down and not feeling good.
So, mom PLEASE take care of you and not worry about any one else. We love you! Take care.
Love,
Kandiss
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